Thursday, May 17, 2012

Recharged - 1

Too many negative posts recently… Is time for some positive intake.
(thank you for “bearing” with me, faithful readers)

Was smiling away and encouraged at the recent home visit and Parent-Teacher-Meeting. Definitely charged up after the sharing of the parents.

Child CS
Though not so at home but Child CS is a verrrrrry quiet boy in school.
Hardly hear him. Hardly see him mingling with friends.
Not vocal so when teachers post a question, the teacher must either go real near to him or to wait for him to nod/shake his head.

Though he often look like he is “not with us” but he is definitely listening. There were few times when I asked the children to bring items like kinder joy wrapper or tissue box, he was the first few to bring.
But interestingly he wont dare to take out on his own. There were once I saw him smiling as he peeked into his bag. When I asked him, he smiled and remained quiet. A while later then I saw him doing the same but this time with the kinder joy wrapper on his hands. 

Due to his skin problem, he felt inferior among his friends.
No one knows when he started feeling this way?
Could it be his low self-esteem that affects his behavior in school?

From his mummy’s sharing…
In the early days, he was upset that his friends dislike him and said that the spots on him are poisonous.

Friend D had been spotted by me few times when he shunned away from Child CS and sometimes his action caused other friends to think/behave so. Though Child CS didn’t show but I know he was affected.
 
So there was one day I couldn’t take it anymore - I sat everyone down and gave a good long naggy lecture and explained about the spots.
Next I gave Child CS a hug to “prove” to everyone.
Just before I end, I got Friend D to touch Child CS. 

Ever since then, no one make fun of Child CS.
Friend D never shuns away from him too.
And I’m surprised that recently they became good friends. 
 
During then, there wasn’t any reaction on Child CS so I thought probably he didn’t feel much but in the recent home visit I realized he actually shared this with his mummy and glad that Miss Lim made that move and to know his friends no longer mind his spots.

The most encouraging…
Glad to know my effort paid off, really off.

A period last term, Child CS was hospitalized thus was absent for few weeks. Before our visit @ hospital, I took and printed a picture of his classmates. I also got them to sign at the back of the self-made card. 

From his mummy’s sharing…
Looking at words on the card, Child CS asked his mummy “Why my friends miss me?“ Mum shared that it probably could be that throughout his kindergarten years, he never felt belong in the class and maybe he feels that none of his friends no
tice him or want to be his friend.

Mum explained further when Child CS spotted one missing friend in the pix, mummy asked Child CS whether he will miss that friend when she is absent, Child CS said “yes”. Mum told him that likewise, when he is absent, his friends miss him too.

The card + friends’ autograph + knowing he been missed SHOCK him big time. Mummy said that this could be the “breakthrough”, where he started to break the wall he been building around his friends and realized he was someone in the class.

Probably this explains the little change I observed in the late Term 2?

He smiles more.
He giggles more, especially when his friends do funny stuff. You could see he very much want to join but don’t know how.
First time in the two terms, Child CS was seen with friends! Though still no conversation but at least there was interaction and most importantly could see that he is happier. 

Tuesday, May 15, 2012

Failed

Failed to convince..
Reasons rejected..
So it gotta be a “yes”…

Monday, May 14, 2012

=(

开始有点烦了...
不觉得开心, 不会兴奋, 也不期待..
怎么办?! 怎么办!? 

Friday, May 11, 2012

Yes Yes?! No Yes?!

“Yes!” because is a genuine “Yes”?
"Yes!" even when feeling "No!"?

Lately whenever I encounter XYZ-questions or the recent ABC-question, I will be tossing between "yes yes" or "no yes" state. 

Just by thinking about it makes me -_-

Just don't know how and why... 

Can only believe everything will fall in place.

Thursday, May 03, 2012

It is time!

There will be a day of school holiday next week… Should I?
Usually a “must” during my Jun & Dec school holiday but this time the urge came earlier, guess I just need a breather, “exercise” and nature.
 
Lately, especially these two weeks been feeling -_- in school where I found myself having lesser smiles and “jokes”.
No good.. No good..

Not sure why...
Term ending? Just tired? 
HFMD issues? School events? One-after-another work load?
Home visitation? Soon-to-Absence Level Head? Sparks-trial? 

To add on, always feel xxyyzz whenever encounter this "issue"..

No matter what, Miss Lim gotta quickly charge up and keep her spirit up. She needs to be at her best for her little angels.

Monday, April 23, 2012

Safe

Random thought which lately was in it…

Just today, my Level Head called me into her classroom. She shared with me about this and that, which beside the Principal, I am the only one who knows. Though is a not a good news that I’m happy with but I’m glad she is willing to share. She didn’t tell me not to tell anyone but of course I wont. Before I left, I told her “your secret safe with me!“ - a statement made by a friend when I shared my “secret”.

Yesterday randomly was talking to Friend M about how “cautious” we will/must be when talking to a particular friend as somehow we know this particular friend will hmmm… help us share around freely and easily. Opps! Haha!

And that I found friend/s who I can share my heart out.
(Vice versa I guess? Haha!)

Who are the friend/s you will share your secret/life with?

A friend who you know for long time VS know for short time..
A friend who you feel comfortable to be opened with VS is not..
A friend who will “blow the trumpet” VS listens and keeps it safe..

There are “issues” that I feel ok to share with EVERYONE.
There are some that I feel comfortable to share with FEW (literally few).

Find it interesting…
How I will share my life with XXX and not YYY or ZZZ…
How I will account to MMM and not NNN and OOO…
How I’m opened to share my heart feelings with AAA and not BBB or CCC or the many-years-of-friend DDD and EEE…
Hahaha!

Last but not least… this is just a random post. Haha!

But I’m thankful, very thankful for the friends God placed in my life!
And I’m blessed, very blessed to have friends who will be there to listen and of course I’m can share with.

Thursday, April 19, 2012

Independent

Haiz… It is confirmed!

The “change” I mentioned few blogs back will take place in the month of May. Keeping fingers crossed it will be for a month though there are possibilities that it could be for the rest of the school year. I really don’t dare to imagine what if is for the rest of the school year. -_-"


My Level Head is going to be away on sabbatical leave due to personal reason. Z Laoshi and I were shocked when she first broke the news to us - we never expect this will happen in our level and definitely not from our Level Head.

Just when I thought I can “peacefully” enjoy my 2nd teaching year… I’m wrong. Of course no one is indispensable but just know that things going to be different when she not around.


I think probably most of my “worry” come from the thought of working with the colleague who will be standing in for her. Hmm… we have quite different working style.

Though we started awkward where she left a “fierce” impression on me but being the 2nd year working with her, I’m definitely comfortable working under and with her. We flow well, especially when there are changes or last minute thingy. Haha! We can take and impromptu pretty easily.
And no doubt one I can fall back on.

I really pray that my Level Head will return before the next school break in end May-June cause I seriously cant imagine what will it be like having level meeting with my “new head“.

Was also told by my Level Head to be on standby to help the colleague whenever possible as it been years since she last step into classroom. And also I know what/where most of the routine.

So now no more “Level Head~~~~~”
Miss Lim has to be independent.